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Oh Tumblr, how did you get me back into roleplaying? I made up a character, and blog for her, and now I'm rping. So much easier there than here though, tried that once and it failed miserably.

On the mental illness front... yay dissociation.
I've kinda withdrawn from a lot of things in the last 6 months as my depression and anxiety has hit me really hard. Just the usual feelings of self-hatred, suicidal thoughts, self harm, minor panic attacks and loneliness. I've been pretty close to suicide a few times... Fucked up uni, feel like a worthless piece of shit because of it. I find it cathartic to post about it on tumblr, and I guess it's stopped me from actually killing myself so far.

So anyway, I'm still alive for now. But as I told an anon at my tumblr 'The being alive thing is complex. I’ve had suicidal thoughts since I was a teenager. Death doesn’t scare me, but I guess some things about being alive do. Sometimes I just want so badly to die, and sometimes I don’t care if I’m alive or if I die. It’s not often that I love being alive.'

Apr. 10th, 2012

Here, have some Shame gifs.

Title: I Live in Hell 1/1
Author: Caroline
Genre: Drama
Rating: T
Synopsis: Guy's demons take hold. Set between episodes 1 and 2 of series 3 of the BBC's Robin Hood.
Credits/Disclaimer (If any): Don’t own, just borrowing.

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Mar. 10th, 2012

Yeah... so basically I live on Tumblr now.

Also, someone made this:


Saw Shame yesterday at the movies. Fucking amazing film.

Jan. 30th, 2012

To whom it may concern:

Sorry for being depressed.